Abandoned Birthday

It's a big day today! Can you guess what day it is? It's my brother's 30th birthday!! We couldn't do more than get him a card but M gets so into the birthday excitement I couldn't wait. Mom made him a chocolate cake and told us we would be seeing my brother tonight for his birthday. The three of us got all dressed up and M even is wearing her beautiful Disney princess gown a friend got her last year for Christmas so she really does look like a princess.

We wait..and wait...and wait...and wait...and wait......................

It's dark out now so I realized suddenly that the house was very quiet. Went upstairs to find out that my parents had left and taken the cake with them. It's now 9 pm. They went out to eat and celebrate with the rest of my family without telling us. There are a couple reasons I could think that they would sneak out on us like that. This is his 30th birthday for cripes sake. This is the nail in the coffin, I officially don't have any family. I will keep my sister is all. I don't want to have "Christmas" with them because it is fake. They don't want us here, I don't want to be here. T's parents have disowned him because of the business failure. What it comes down too is basically my daughter has no family besides our really amazing friends. If our "families" cared anything about her, they would have tried their best to be with her. We have been here since the beginning of August. My brother lives 15 minutes away and he has only seen her 4 times since we got here. T asked me "What did you expect? Did you expect them to change?" Maybe a secret part of me will always expect them to change.

My mom gave me cheese this morning that had expired in JUNE 2008.

I am sick of the comments, sick of the looks, sick of all of this. I am sick of crying over people who aren't worth it. I want to leave. If anyone has a trailer in the south with a car on blocks in the driveway and a fridge on the porch, I will take it.